In HIS Hands

I have to admit, I have been rather frustrated lately. Bills seem to pile up and I just can't catch up. I know that as soon as I catch up I will be fine. Just catching up is the problem. It seems just when I think I am getting caught up, here is another unexpected bill. It is frustrating, as I am sure MANY people understand.

Monday night, I figured my bills that needed to get paid this week. Then I cried. No joke, I really did.

I prayed that night to God that he take it all. It's in His hands. I know that He will take care of me and He WILL provide to me. I just have to remember to place it all in His hands. Usually, it takes a little bit of patience to see Him working. Not this time.

Tuesday, I got a phone call about my car payment that was behind. The lady wanted to know when I was going to pay and what had caused me to get behind. Then she asked me if it would help if they deferred my November and December payments. I could pick back up with my payments on my normal due date in January.

About an hour later I called Nipsco to see if my services had been transferred to my new address and if there was still a balance. I had talked to them once, but I called to double check anyways and found out that I had misunderstood. They had actually canceled my Nipsco account and were waiting for me to call them to set up at the new address. Since my account was cancelled, my deposit that I paid almost 5 years ago was used to cover my pre-existing bill, and the rest was credited to my account. For some reason, my new deposit was 1/3 of the original one that I paid 5 years ago, so my credit was able to be used to cover the new deposit AND there is still a $359.00 credit on my Nipsco account. I don't have to pay a bill for Nipsco till at least February.

That is so cool.

I truly don't believe that it was all coincidence that this all happened the day after I told God I needed help and it was in His Hands.

God is Good. And he is continually showing me why.

Addict going through withdraw

I have not had much Internet access in the last few weeks. I moved two weeks ago and have gotten online a few times using friend's and family's computers.

I realized something in that time. I do everything on the net. I am not sure when I got to that point. I used to be able to go days or even a week with out Internet access. Crazy, I know, but unfortunately it is very true.

I pay my bills on line.
I chat with friends on line.
I talk to family on line.
I play games on line.
I even write on line.

So the last few weeks I have felt like an addict going through withdraws.

One positive thing is that I started writing in my journal again. here is something a little more freeing about writing as opposed to typing. So I am going to keep it up. Over the next few days, you will probably see a lot of posts from what I have wrote in the last few weeks.

No more withdraws. I have my addiction back. :)

Text Messages from God

I am reading a book right now. It's Take Four from the Above the Line series by Karen Kingsbury. I love Karen Kingsbury. She is an amazing Christian author that really knows how to write about real issues. She writes about life. And life isn't always easy, and it definitely isn't perfect.

Anyway, one of the characters in the book is going through a tough time and has a big decision to make. She made a comment that made me smile. It made me smile because I would have to whole heartedly agree with what she said.

She said that sometimes she wishes God would send her a text message telling her what to do.

Wouldn't that be nice? I mean seriously, I have received so many text messages today. I got some from my friends, 2 from my boss, about 6 from my manager that is running my store tonight, and even one from Verizon telling me my cell phone bill is due. I got one from my roommate, and a few from the girl that's gonna be my roommate in a few weeks when I move, and that's just to name a few!

I would love to flip open my phone and have a text message waiting for me from God telling me what to do. No more wondering if I am making the right decisions or heading in the right direction with my life. God would simply have to send me a message and tell me.

Unfortunately, it is not that easy to to know what God's plan is for you. I am okay with that, because I have learned to listen. There are some days when I have to admit, I do not listen hard enough.

Lessons Learned.

One thing I do know for sure is that if God were to send me a text message, He would end it with I love you. Every time.

That's what gets me through the day. That's what keeps me going when I have tough decisions to make. God loves me, and he always will.

That's a text message He sends to my heart when I need it the most.