I saw a counselor today for the first time since the first week of our separation. It is interesting how just talking to someone helps you sort through some feelings. At one point he stopped me and said why are you lying to yourself? What do you mean, I asked him. He said I was contradicting myself and needed to quit believing the lies I have been told about me. So Here I have been blaming myself for something and convinced that I could do this better and then reality slaps me in the face. What is the truth? Why Have I been convinced that this is true? When did I start believing what others said about me? Where along my path did reality vanish and I let the Lies become who I thought I was?
Whoa......The answer was easy once I stopped to think about it. Satan is lying to us. Its like he whispers in our ears lie after lie after lie. His lies can come from anywhere, even people we love or care for telling us the lies. Eventually, we hear the lie so much that we start believe the lie. It can be a big lie or it can be a small lie, but a lie is a lie no matter how big or small. Satan is a liar and he is determined to make us falter in our paths.
Well, Satan, you have been found out. I will no longer believe your lies. I know and believe that you are a liar. I believe in God and His redeeming mercy and grace. I believe in His love for me. I believe that He is working in my life and the lives of those I love. I believe that His son Died on the cross for me and I want the whole word to know that that is what I think! I believe in His Personal Promise to me. Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a Future."
I am not perfect. Nobody is perfect. The only Man who was ever perfect was hung on a cross so that I can be forgiven for not being perfect. That is the TRUTH!